Mental health

MH Awareness Month: Inside My Anxiety #1

Excuse the awful title. This morning got off to an anxious start and I’m still shaken up.

There was an uncomfortable incident during my morning exercise, and now I feel uncomfortable to even continue going there. It’s been about an hour since the first half of the incident and twenty minutes since the second half, and my mind won’t stop with what if’s and scenarios that are sending my stomach flip-flopping.

– what if the guy retaliates

– what if the guy follows us

– what if, by filing a complaint, it causes more problems

– what if he attempts to harm one of us

Thanks to OCD, I’m having vivid thoughts about him yelling at us or shooting one of us. Even just posting this, I wanted to share what happened but I’m fearful of him finding it and harming us. He was already glaring and listening in. I feel so uncomfortable about the whole thing. My hands shook the whole time and I feel nauseous now.

I’m making myself a cup of tea so, hopefully, that will help me start to wind down.

I’m going to try to focus on what I need to do the rest of the day, but it’s all nestled in the back of my mind and it doesn’t feel good at all.